clinical depression??

You know when you are positively sure about something yet you still are unsure about it??

I am confronting a fork in the road which is disturbing my decision making ability. All those signs that appeared and went probably imply something and I am pretty sure about it. Nonetheless, I have also have this struggle within myself, telling me that those signs are absolutely coincidental. Consistency and relativity are the keywords for this dilemma, I guess. I have observed enough consistency, although its a bit intermittent. Relativity is the part I'm doubting about...

If these signs imply something and if my interpretation is correct, I would be a happy man, but without all the confidence I used to have before, I am not sure and to be honest, simultaneously scared to find out the truth. This is the part where all this swinging comes from. I should prepare some dedication and get this dilemma over with...

I just hope everything goes as planned and...I also hope I don't screw it up this time. Last but not least, I am not in a state of clinical depression. lol