fight

My instinct and my will are having a major quarrel inside my mind...while my instinct is telling me to go, my will is telling me to give up. After all, I've commited almost all of the actions I've thought up of to impress her and nothing's happening. No sign, no clue, no nothing...

God, this sucks. So mortifying...I can't believe I'm actually crying night after night from this sense of regret that is flowing inside me. I want the powers Mel Gibson got in the movie "What Women Want".

Maybe this is the reality...