free web tracker soliloquies: 02/26/2006 - 03/05/2006


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Friday, March 03, 2006


After a week long stay, I came home from Livingston, my childhood home.

I haven't really done anything showy there. My stay there revolved around interactions I had with many of my friends from elementary school and their friends. Even though I have never met any of them before, they were all great and we were able to do stuff together as if we knew each other from before. I was able to feel the kindness a lot of Americans had and as a result, I was quite fascinated. A bold, positive image of Livingston was recorded again, onto my "album" and renewed my wish.

I've always wanted a residence in that area of New Jersey ever since I've left Livingston in 1999. It's a great place to live, although a lot of effort will be necessary to realize my wish. Real estate there is really expensive and even though I do have relatively advanced English skills, after all, I'm a Japanese national and will remain a foreigner, unless I transfer my nationality over to the United States.

During my stay this year, my friend and his family always asked me whether or not I was going to move back to Livingston. As I've mentioned before, I do have a will of moving back to Livingston if I have the opportunity to do so, but it still is filled with uncertainty. I always tend to think up of tactics that will bring me back to the States with highest possibility in my career and for now, I've reached a temporal conclusion.

I believe that entering an eminent foreign financial firm and finding my way through that corporation back to the United States should give me the highest chance for me to realize my dream. However, here in Japan, foreign financial firms are listed as the most difficult companies for a college graduate to enter. What kind of activities will increase my chance of accession into one of these companies?

One things for sure. My current lifestyle will definitely do no good for my resume when my accession activity begins next year. Within my mind, I understand that I should find something motivating that will allow me to put my utmost effort in...but what is it? I've attempted a lot of things in the past, but I haven't continued any of those attempts.

My friends are busily attempting to make a portal website for our university. The idea sounds interesting, nevertheless, the fact that I've built websites when I was in elementary school dramatically decreases my interest towards website building. It it was my first attempt, given my character, it would've been a lot interesting and I would've been able to concentrate in it, in a way my friends are doing now

So, work? Club? Study? I'd better reach a conclusion and I'd better get there fast.