free web tracker soliloquies: 01/29/2006 - 02/05/2006


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, February 04, 2006


Yesterday, I went around Daikanyama/Shibuya area with few of my friends. With my friend whom I planned this day out together, we decided to keep this close and secret to meet my other friend's request. Besides, the main purpose was kind of like a private celebration.

Anyway, we got off at Daikanyama station to start things out with and went to this cafe, walking here and there, following our instincts. The cafe we had our lunch in was quite fashionable and food there was great too. 2 hours we spent there passed by rather quickly which we spent talking casually about a lot of different stuff. At around 3pm, we walked to Shibuya and there, we did stuff that came off top of our minds until the place we were planning on going in for dinner opened.

Following the opening hour, we went in this bar I've just mentioned that was filled with buddhas and ordered a lot of menus and cocktails that had peculiar namings. Despite the weird naming, food there was tasteful and did satisfy our appetites.

Afterwards, we threw darts in this entertainment complex we often use and played a game each of count-up, cricket and 301. I guess that's I did have a lot of fun though and I hope the other two did too!

Let's have another round, whenever we have the opportunity, sometime, in the near future.

Thursday, February 02, 2006


You know how there are some things that are better left off unknown? "Ignorance is bliss" is the perfect expression to precisely describe what I am trying to say here.

My examination period had finally come to an end yesterday (technically, the day before yesterday) with the completion of my crime law exam. Since my friends and I had been discussing plans for a drinking party to celebrate the end of our academic year for a while now, I mailed all of my classmates in order to invite them over. Of course, my close friends and I had been drinking almost every week together, but we decided to call everyone over this time because of the characteristic of the occasion.

First of all, I was disappointed about the fact that some people didn't send me an RSVP. I didn't specifically write that a reply was obligatory, but I think it would've been polite if people at least told me whether or not he/she is coming. What's more, 2 people suddenly cancelled their appearance last night. One of them gave me a contact with an adequate amount of time left for cancellation, but the other just disappeared into nowhere. He never took the calls we made nor answered to those calls afterward for an apology or something. How rude can he be for God's sake.

Well, even though the first one gave me a contact and an apology before the party commenced, according to his blog, he seemed to have had a great time at a karaoke bar or something. God, what is wrong with these people...don't they understand how awkward their actions are? I'm not going to name who here, but I had been place in the same kind of position last autumn regarding "you know who" numerous times and it's becoming more and more unbearable. These people...then can't keep the more basic thing in human relationship. Promise keeping.

Monday, January 30, 2006


With one subject remaining, my examination period is about to end. I had given an acceptable amount of effort into studying this semester and as a result, at least for now, I assume I had made some accomplishments academically: political science, jurisprudence, geography, American regional culture, constitution, civil law and French.

I didn't want to make any compromises study-wise this time, since compromises I made last semester were the root causes of Bs and Ds I got last semester. Besides, only losers are the ones who make compromises in the first place. Other than that, I always want to be a kind of person who is always motivated in some sort. Even though I major law in college now, I have no intention of entering the field of profession that requires judicial license in Japan, like lawyers, prosecutors and judiciary.

Judicial license, or examination in direct translation requires passage of a tough examinations that are set up in stages and in reality, it also requires training in what we call "double school" or private secondary school besides college that specializes in these exams, like "cram schools" for college, high schools and private middle schools. Tuitions for these secondary schools cost as much as university tuitions here and I can't seem to find that much meaning in it.

Also, I have this intention of leaving this country. Not permanently, but temporarily through oversea activities of corporations in a way my father was sent to New Jersey. If I become lawyer right after I graduate college in a way many of my colleagues chose, then my option would narrow, unless I obtain lawyer qualification abroad and work as an international lawyer or something. In Japanese system, there waits another examination when a year and a half training period that is given by the government after the judicial examination, ends.

Anyway, I don't understand why I'm writing all this here, in English, where I get 4-5 accesses per day, but with all that red wine, sake and beer, I guess I'm a bit drunk. Nevertheless, I'm dead serious about what I've written here. I wish I can work for a financial firm that operates around the globe for the time being after graduation and then, I may study for judicial qualification afterwards, when law school restrictions are loosened in 2010.

Besides all this judicial crap, I have this nature I can't understand. When I'm depressed concerning human relationship, I tend to runaway from or block the closest relationship in existence. This action probably derives from my prejudice against others. I understand this kind of behavior will do nothing positive for me, but there seems to be a flow of distrust against everyone at my root. Everyone understands how no one can understand anyone, no matter how close you are to that person and theoretically, I understand this fundamental fact too. Nevertheless, for some reason, my heart is filled with envy against others who apparently seem to be spending much more valuable and fulfilling life compared to mine. I guess the geographical factory is one of the main cause of this conflict and prejudice...why do I live in Kanagawa when most of my friends have much better accessibility to Shibuya?

I think I'll translate this all into Japanese later.