free web tracker soliloquies: 01/15/2006 - 01/22/2006


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, January 21, 2006


Without notice, I was added on to the list of members who were called to visit Disneyland 3 days before the examination week. Basically, I am a type of a guy who is unable to reject offers like these, so with a lot of hesitation, I ended up in Maihama Station at around 5PM today.

It turned out that 4 years had passed ever since I visited Disneyland last time and there were some new attractions there that sparked interest within me. Buzz Light Year's shooting thing was quite interesting, but it scarcely met up with my expectations.

Anyway, my friends and I went there in a group of 7. I was supposed to be in a land of dreams, nevertheless, I ended up seeing a lot more reality or the state I am currently situated in. A year had passed already and I'm beginning to a lot more "career making" friends while I'm stranded here, all alone. Facing this harsh reality, that question whirls inside my mind again.

Am I...? If so, that is so sad. I just hope this feeling of envy against him doesn't turn into has the potentiality to turn this crappy life even crappier. Sigh.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006


I could've written here in the past, but let me confirm the fact that I work in a cinema complex that is located in central Yokohama. Work there is quite easy and I had no specific complaint against the working environment know what comes after this. Now I do.

Starting from this month, the executives have began to take this nonsense policy, attempting to increase the theater's profit. This policy basically is a reduction of total work hours reserved for student part timers, but I personally think that this policy is going to give grave consequences to the theater's image.

Sure, everyone understands that a lower wage will increase any businesses' profit but the point I'm trying to make here is that the executives of my theater has gone too far. Now, we lack the minimum amount of people that are necessary to run the section I currently work for. As a result, we are unable to do the jobs that we are assigned to do.

For example, according to the manual, we are supposed to clean and refill the restrooms every half hour, but on Sunday, we didn't have enough "spare time" necessary for us to clean the restrooms. Otherwise, we wouldn't have had enough reserve of employees necessary to complete our more "critical" work, such as cleaning of the theaters. Besides, employees are put into a lot of stress. I mean A LOT.

If things like these, such as dirty restrooms continue on like this, it will ultimately decrease the amount of our customers as a whole which will not only make this policy meaningless, but will significantly reduce the original profit itself. We are not the only ones running movies in the district and the consumer's are given a broad variety to choose from.

Sunday, January 15, 2006


Currently, I have 5 keywords that are whirling inside me right now.

- hasty judgments
- tug of war
- friendship reparation
- irritation
- complicated emotion

1. hasty judgments
My tendency and posibility of making a hasty judgment are on the rise. Without rethinking, I dash right toward a temporal conclusion or a resolution (mostly negative) and as a result, I often go into an emotional depression.

2. tug of war
It's quite difficult for me to judge the timing I'm supposed to "push" and "pull" in human relationships. Although I doubt that the expressions "push" and "pull" are used in English, these words precisely describe what I want to say here, so I'll use it anyway via direct translation. How much "pushing" is accepted? How long should a "pulling" period be for it to have a maximum effect?

3. friendship reparation
Yes, I had a minor fight with one of my best friends regarding our trip to Australia. I mailed him, expressing my regret for talking so sarcastically after he mailed me his opinion last month. We've promised we'll talk this out after our finals.

4. irritation
Significant changes I've noticed in someone I know has irritated me greatly, mostly because of the remorse against my actions I've took regarding that someone throughout last year. What a dumbass.

5. complicated emotion
I'll write about this tomorrow, perhaps.