free web tracker soliloquies: 09/05/2004 - 09/12/2004


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

a moment of silence

It is 8:46am Eastern Daylight Time, the time when the first plane crashed into the North Tower of the World Trade Center in New York City. I am giving a moment of silence to all of those whom lost their invaluable lives on this day, 3 years ago.

"1984" has arrived?

I've watched the movie "Fahrenheit 9/11" in August, and had been watching the documentary that was airing on television up until now, because of my interests toward the tragic incident that happened on this day, 3 years ago. From the information coming in from these sources, I'm beginning to see some similarities between the United States, and the totalitarian nation Oceania in George Orwell's novel, "1984".

Of course, they are not "exactly" the same, but the tactics the American Govenment is using to keep its citizens under control is quite similar to the methods The Party is using to keep their people under control in Oceania.

For example, the use of war. The American govenment is repeating that the "War Against Terror" is continuing, even though they have declared that major combat operations in Iraq had ended. The Party in "1984", like the current American Govenment, is always saying that their nation is in war with one of the two superpowers in their world. In America's case, both the positive and the negative informations are being reported to the American people, but from what I've heard, the information is most likely censored. Also, I believe that the manipulation of history and evidences is another similarity. Most of the liable evidences of 9-11 had been collected by the FBI, and their also is, or possibly, are cases of a possible evidence manipulation.

Is the negative utopia that George Orwell wrote in 1948 becoming a reality? I believe it is, but in a more ingenious format. This can be said on all things, but having a single superpower that is able to dominate the whole market definately brings negative effects on everyone outside of that superpower. But from what I see now, there is nothing in our world today that can stand up to the United States both military wise, and economic wise...where is our world heading today? Is tomorrow going to be a better day? The future still lies in the mist...

Friday, September 10, 2004

freedom of mobile access

This morning, I was on the subway platform of Totsuka Sta.. There, as I always do, I took a peek at my handset's subdisplay to confirm what time it was then. The display showed something that hadn't showed up was notifying me the existance of the radio signal there. With doubt, I tried confirming wherther I had any new mail or not in the Mail Center. The connection was really nice and smooth, which proved that the area coverage improved today on the Yokohama Municipal Subway. Up until yesterday, the antenna thingy always showed kengai or "out of area" on all of the subway stations I go through on my way to school. But starting today, FOMA phones are usable on all of the stations between Shonandai and Totsuka, although the press release from DoCoMo is not yet listed on their website. Yay! lol

Being a FOMA user ever since 2002, I've been watching how radio wave and battery life had improved over the past 2 years. In those days, FOMA was a useless piece of crap, which stunk at every task you could imagine of. Unsendable mails, areas without radio signal, short battery life...the elements necessary for a user friendly cell phone lacked. FOMA stands for "freedom of mobile access", which ironically was totally not true from the loose area coverage then. The only reason why I was able to endure those user pissing technological disadvantages was that it was my first cell phone, and I was able to give up by saying to myself that cell phone technologies are like that from the beginning. But now with the new 900i series, FOMA is becoming the mainstream line of DoCoMo's handset lineups. I would like to believe that my efforts answering all those enquetes and questions had helped improve the service in

Thursday, September 09, 2004

what shall i do now?

Okay. The classes had begun today. They were all so...normal, just like the ones held in the first semester. Lame-o! Anyway, today, on my way home, I was chit-chatiing with some of my friends on the bus. They told me what they did on Mr. Kringle's first class this semester, which was...this blog!

Now, as you can see, I've been writing this blog everyday ever since July 2nd, and whats more, I've written some "not for everyone" kinda thing here too. Holy S**T! What shall I do? I just can't evaporate this will obviously lower my grade. But I'm not in the mood for deleting the articles one by one.

Oh one checks these blogs out anyway :p

Today, was not the best day for me, and was kind of unlucky from the morning. Not that desperate, but it definately was not my best day. A lot of mini "feel bad" occurences were placed through out the day. I hope tomorrow will be a better

Last, but not least...

::Happy 18th Birthday!!!!!!!!::

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

skool haz begun

Now that school has begun, my blog entrees will be most likely be shorter than the ones I wrote over the summer. Today was my "Back-To-School" day, which is like one of the worst days in a typical year. I was pretty sure before today, but school sucks. Too boring...maybe it matches better with the phrase "not fulfilling". School days are just day after day of repeated process. There's not even a bit of freshness to your life, which is something summer vacations are good at offering.

What's more, today was kinda like a reunion day for most of the people in my school, but I've seen majority of my class at least once over the summer, and it may sound unbelievable, but there are 2 people in my class who I saw 12 or 13 days out of 49 days of recess. These facts wiped away all the "back-to-school" freshness, if there is any, out. I favor narrow and deep relationships more than broad and shallow relationships. I was able to spend my summer with the kind of relationship I like. But now, I have to go back to the latter way. Even if I spoke often to that person in school, I didn't meet them over the summer, not even once. In fact, I only saw 8 or 9 people privately.

I hate hanging out with people I don't even like, but that's kinda inevitable when school starts...damn.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004


In today's blog, I'm going to wrap up my summer. Yay!...NOT. While most of the high school seniors are studying their guts out by attending summer cram school classes 10 hours a day, in preparation for the university entrance exams, I was playing around throughout the summer this year. If you continue on reading this blog from July 20th, you'll probably be able to loosely understand the fun I had this summer, which is of course, indescribable by words.

Logical explanations are unnecessary for good relationships. I don't understand why and how I got together with these great 6F folks, but they sure are all began from the first culture festival meeting in July at Mikito's, and then the fireworks, numerous video shootings and editings, followed by the quiz tournament. It temporarily concluded today at my house. Of course, we'll see each other everyday starting tomorrow in 6F, but the perspective would probably differ from the ones used during the summer. I'll do my best in maintaining this priceless relationship...even if we get separated when we all advance to university next year.

Not just the 6F folks, but I was able to spend a fabulous time with my family in Bali too. I can't leave that day at Tokyo Disney Sea out also...although I'll keep that mostly to myself. lol

I guess my plan to create the best summer ever has suceeded and well too. Today marks the end of my last summer vacation as a high school student, but I'll keep these great memories within my heart, and on the internet here(lol) and use it as the motive power to do my best at school in the second semester. For now, my goal is a month long endurance. I can't wait till the Kamakura Revenge, and Sweet Potato Digging that are planned ahead! lol

Monday, September 06, 2004

curiousity killed the cat. what about moms? jk

Recently, my mother seems to be interested about my relationships, between both guys and girls. Well, it is adolescence period, and I do go to a co-ed educational institution. But being a type of guy, who tends to keep relationships, especially "private" and "semi-private" ones to myself, this can get really annoying. She comes in to my room, takes a peek at my MSN screen, points out at all of the members listed there, and asks me who that person is, after comfirming his or her sex. May I have some privacy, for God's sake...but I think I do have the minimum duty of informing her about the people I hang out with, so I do tell her some facts, sometimes, after a whole lot of blurring and zig-zagging. She's especially interested in my "personal" relationships, whatever that is. I've been hiding it from my parents for quite a while now, but the strong "women's sense" my mother has is sencing it quite clearly. Has the time for explanation came?

Now, my sister's genes probably inherited her ability. She does exactly the same thing my mom does, and asks me who he or she I'm having a conversation with...NOW THAT IS ANNOYING!!!

Sunday, September 05, 2004


I'm a type of guy who rarely watch TV, so I have rather limited knowledge on things related to TV, such as commercials, dramas, domestic music, and so on. But my sister tends to favor watching television during dinner, which is of course, hopelessly annoying...which gives me minimum amount of information related to television. Today during dinner, I saw the new tv ad from Vodafone, the phone operator company, which I though was locationed at Roppongi Hills. I was able to sight the transparent number showing window thing that is there, and other familiar sights located there in the footage.

I'm pretty sure though...oh, I kinda like the girl in the footage, although I'm not sure what her name is. lol I think I favored the last commercial of her series too, in this cafe kinda place. Unfortunately, I have no intention of changing the operator from DoCoMo, which is totally against their will. Sorry Vodafone! lol