free web tracker soliloquies: 01/08/2006 - 01/15/2006


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, January 14, 2006


There's got to be something terribly wrong with our environment.

Normally, here in Japan, located in the northern hemisphere of our planet, thunderstorms rarely occur. Even though today, as you know, is January 14th and it's winter, frequent lightning continuously flashed the dark, cloudy sky this afternoon. On the other hand, it's snowing like crazy in Hokuriku and Tohoku regions this year and I'm feeling a grave sense of apprehension toward the change in our environment. Bad weather kept me inside, so I don't really have much to write about today. Let's talk about yesterday instead.

I spent half of my day outside studying in classes while the other half was being spent in city centers yesterday. Due to my timetable, I have 3rd period off on Fridays. Although I tend to have a tough time spending this 90 minute-long boringness, I've decided to bring my friends over to Yokohama where I had to pick up my cell phone I ordered the day before yesterday. 90 minutes was a bit short for us to actually do anything fun there after all, but it was nice having someone with me on my way to and back from Yokohama.

After the civil law class on 4th period, my friend asked me to help her out with her Powerpoint presentation. Since I didn't have any need to rush out of school yesterday, I decided to help her out. 2 more of my classmates followed us into the computer room which brought us all to Shibuya after her assignment finished.

It was a weird combination member-wise, but the time I spent with them in Tsuki-no-Shizuku was quite enjoyable, talking about a lot of different stuff. I'm not going to specifically write about what we talked about there though.

We spent about 3.5 hours there, clogging up waiting line (oops!) and played this game that supposedly measures how efficient the player's right cerebral hemisphere is in an arcade nearby. I said goodbye to my friends in Shibuya at around 22:45 and came home at around 0:30.

That's the whole reason why I've slept through most of today. So what. It's a Saturday. lol

Thursday, January 12, 2006


I met my ex-girlfriend yesterday. For some reason, whenever we see each other on campus, we ask each other how each other's life is. A tradition, perhaps. I was surprised to find out myself that I was able give her a positive response without rethinking, and without doubt unlike our other rendezvous in the past.

I can answer with absolute confidence that I'm currently enjoying my life quite well, but with one exception. The concern that is currently whirling inside my mind is the fact that I don't have a partner I'm desperate to spend grand time together with. This is something I'm not willing to compromise in anyway and I think I'm giving a reasonable amount of effort in various directions; fashion, actions, character, carefulness, etc. to significantly increase my charm.

Nevertheless, I'm beginning to doubt the direction or the method I have been taking in order to bring me closer to one of my ultimate goals of my college life. Am I that unattractive? This question is continuously being asked against myself inside my mind and I'm unable to give a clear answer to it, due to lack of confidence that resulted from all those incidents this year.

I'm probably in a need of an almighty manual that will guide me toward realization of my wills. But no such thing exists, especially when human relationships are concerned, like in a way that psychology professor said in his class yesterday.

I'm aware that this debate is going to lead me nowhere, but...never mind. This entree will

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

back to school...sort of

Even though I fought so hard against my drowsiness, my chemistry class was not taking place this morning for some unknown reason. I did check the university website this morning, confirming how chemistry class was NOT cancelled today. You know how difficult it is to get yourself up at 6 on a winter morning...damnit.

Nevertheless, the reason why I didn't know the chemistry class being closed today is probably because of lack of my attendance. So, I researched my exam schedule and made a timetable based on it. On 2nd period, I contacted my friends and joined them in their psychology class, learning how blood type based characteristic tests are scientifically wrong.

During lunch, my friends and I joined some more of my classmates in the cafeteria and had a lot of fun talking about variety of stuff. My school day continued on to 3rd period with geography and 4th period with constitution, obtaining adequate amount of knowledge through these classes.

After school, I went to my driving school. I'm struggling to graduate this money eating, time consuming institution where I must go to get my driver's license. I missed the course twice today during my driving "lesson" today...what a shame.

Although I did so crappy driving-wise, I had a nice, enjoyable day back in school, seeing a lot of my friends on campus. I wish tomorrow will be just as good a day. Au revoir!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

a fresh new start

2006 has begun and as I've written on my Japanese blog, one of my goals this year is to obtain or pass UNATE Level SA. Since I advanced into university, the amount of opportunities I get to exercise my English skills decreased in a great amount. In SFC High, I had about 6 hours of English classes per week, but now, I only have an hour and a half.

I believe that the best way for a person to improve his/her language skill is to use it as much as he/she can. This English blog did help me a lot when I was in high school, so I would like to alter the use of this blog from now on.

Instead of writing profound, apparently meaningful entries here, sort of hiding my thoughts away from my friends, I would like to write about my everyday life and what I've felt through my life I am currently spending here in Japan. In other words, this blog will be targeted toward foreigners. However, I would like to note that I'll make some entries that relate to "relationships".

Yesterday was the "Coming-of-Age Day" here in Japan. This national holiday was established right after World War II to increase the motivation of young people, who were hurt both mentally and physically from the war and it's said to have begun in Warabi City in Saitama Prefecture. On this day, all people who became or are to become 20 in that academic year are invited to a ceremony that are commenced throughout the nation, sponsored by that person's local municipality.

Since I was busy yesterday coming home from Kyoto and with all that drinking I did in Shibuya afterwards, I didn't have the opportunity to think seriously about the next "Coming-of-Age" day in 2007. I will be the one becoming 20. It's quite unbelievable that 19 years had passed since I was born....19 years. Technically, it's not until the 27th this month but still, a lot has happened, here and there throughout these years.

I was born in Isogo Ward of Yokohama City in Kanagawa Prefecture and lived there for 3 years. Then, I moved to Yokosuka City in Kanagawa Prefecture and lived there for 2 years. When I was 6, due to my father's transfer, my family moved over to New Jersey in the United States and lived there for 6 years. In 1999, my family moved back to Zushi City in Kanagawa Prefecture where I live now ever since...for 6 years and counting.

This is a lot different from the contents I've wrote in my Japanese blog but it's always interesting to recollect the paths you took. Anyway...this entry is a lot normal, compared to the entries I've posted here since April. Good job, me. lol