free web tracker soliloquies: 01/02/2005 - 01/09/2005


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, January 08, 2005


I feel so powerless and helpless...disconsolate may be the perfect word. It's not like I have a clear solution to it and I am able to upturn the situation once I know everything, but I can't stand the current state I am in, where only thing I can do is to watch, unable to help or assist and impotent. I just want to make things better, if not, at least feel a little bit more comfortable. I feel as though everything I do is going around in circles, going nowhere. Wait a minute. Is it better off if I just mind my own business? I'm totally stumped.

I appologize for this apparently meaningless blabber...I needed a place to diffuse.

One last thing. According to a reliable source, applicants for each of the faculities have revealed.

Both of the Faculty of Law departments - a little over 30
Faculty of Economy, Commerce, Literature - no problem
SFC Faculties - less than expected

Thanx! lol

Friday, January 07, 2005

loss of motivation

Times Square, New York, U.S.
You know what? Belileve it or not I didn't study for the proficiency test at all today! What's more, I'm going to bed in less than 30min. I've realized how meaningless it is for me study these subjects that are going to become obsolete after 1/13, especially if I am able to advance into the faculty of my choice. Of course studying them will definately increase my proficiency test scores, but so what. They are testing your PROFICIENCY, not your preparedness. I'm a foresighter, not a meaningless effort-putter. Now I feel so open and one's really studying anyway, with some expections.

There's this song I really like...nah, I'm not going to talk about that. It's boring. I'm expecting to get a new cell h tomorrow, yay! Also, exchange students from Australia are coming over from the 12th. I wonder how they are...Since I've never experienced anything Australian, besides Savage Garden and Kylie Minogue, this week's going to be pretty interesting. lol

One last thing. I'm really moved by all the help people are giving to the victims of the Sumatra Earthquake and the tsunamis. Governments, cooporations and personals are donating a lot of their private wealth to the nations and people in devastated areas. Yes, I understand that there are a lot of "goals" hidden behind these acts, but even with those conspiracies, it's really heartwarming to see everyone helping out. I've heard that homeless people in Denmark gathered $3500 to donate, from the sympathy they felt toward the victims. This is unbelievable. The total amount of money gather from all sources are record high. I know that money isn't everything with support, but it's really nice...I'm emotional.

But this question arose inside me. I know that donaters get tax rebates in the United States and that is one of the reasons why a lot of people are donating in the States, represented by Sandra Bullock and Bill Gates, but even without that system in place, why have I not heard of any Japanese millionaires or talents donating, when they should have the "dough" to do so? I've heard some cases of wonderful donations when Niigata Chuetsu Earthquake happened, but none from "richies" here also. Strange...
The Strip, Las Vegas, U.S.

Space Needle, Seattle, U.S.

Thursday, January 06, 2005


(Please refer to yesterday's blog)

Wednesday, January 05, 2005


London Eye, London, U.K.
Okay, folks. I REALLY SHOULDN'T BE POSTING BLOGS NOW. Time is really becoming a luxuary I don't have...SHIT. I've only finished half of the vector section. Next up, Math I. This better be easy...or else, I'm dead. No, think positive, me!

Champs-Elysees, Paris, France

Vasco da Gama Tower, Lisbon, Portugal

Copacabana beach, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

Tuesday, January 04, 2005


Red Square, Moscow, Russia
All right. It seems like I'm really running late on my schedule...I may not be able to finish any of the subjects necessary for the proficiency test. SHIT. Yeah, I've spent some nice time with my family during the "sanganichi"(1/1-1/3), meaning that I didn't do anything academic. I've only finished Math A! No, not the subject, which includes Math B partinally, but ONLY the section Math A. Some of you may figure how dead I am from this fact. I should be facing my desk solving problems instead of typing a blog like this, but I like exercising my English skills superior to math problems, so bare with me. lol

From now on, my winter recess is probably going to be stuffed with Math, possibly kobun and kanbun...this totally sucks. :( Oh yeah, I'll probably be visiting the States, New Jersey and New York City starting from 2/19 to 2/26. Yippee!

Independence Square, Kiev, Ukraine

Acropolis, Athens, Greece

Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra, Vienna, Austria

Brandenburg Gate, Berlin, Germany

Monday, January 03, 2005


Tokyo Tower, Tokyo, Japan
Since I can't find any pic to use for this blog, I decided to show how everyone celebrated the arrival of 2005. If these pics interfere with copyright in any way...let me know. lol

I was visiting my grandparents' as usual for a day. They live about 60km away from the place I live, in Tokyo, but I was amazed to see the amount of snow remaining! What's more, the temperature felt a bit colder there. Although the distance is not too far, I may be able to call this "kisei". lol

Because of this, I was unable to update my blog. There's not much to say besides this...sorry!

Harbour Bridge, Sydney, Australia

Taipei 101, Taipei, Taiwan

Hong Kong, China

Jakarta, Indonesia