free web tracker soliloquies: 04/16/2006 - 04/23/2006


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, April 22, 2006


Today was one of the most important days of my life. Exaggerated, but it really was important. I was able to pass the document examination of the summer school program to Cambridge last week and today was its second examination: the interview.

I left my house with enough time to spare but the traffic...I was aware of the fact that roads in Zushi are clogged up on weekends from all the motorist tourists heading for Kamakura. I definitely have taken my bike, but I was stupid enough to take the bus even with today's moderate weather. Traffic jam made me miss the train I was planning on taking and it really really pissed me off and my heart was full of anxiety.

With my luck that had given me all the classes I wanted this year, I was able to get myself through this crisis and got to Mita right on time. There, in the waiting room, I saw numerous people with their shiny suits on which really made my nervous prior to the interview itself.

Luckily, the interview itself wasn't that bad. The professors who were in charge of my batch of students weren't that mean. They asked us a total of 3 questions in both English and Japanese and I think I answered them well enough to gain the eligibility for this program. Although I am still not certain if we all are going to gain the opportunity to join the program, but all the students who took the interview together seemed nice too.

They are going to give us the results on the 28th. Until then, I will spend some nervous days...

Friday, April 21, 2006

clinical depression??

You know when you are positively sure about something yet you still are unsure about it??

I am confronting a fork in the road which is disturbing my decision making ability. All those signs that appeared and went probably imply something and I am pretty sure about it. Nonetheless, I have also have this struggle within myself, telling me that those signs are absolutely coincidental. Consistency and relativity are the keywords for this dilemma, I guess. I have observed enough consistency, although its a bit intermittent. Relativity is the part I'm doubting about...

If these signs imply something and if my interpretation is correct, I would be a happy man, but without all the confidence I used to have before, I am not sure and to be honest, simultaneously scared to find out the truth. This is the part where all this swinging comes from. I should prepare some dedication and get this dilemma over with...

I just hope everything goes as planned and...I also hope I don't screw it up this time. Last but not least, I am not in a state of clinical depression. lol

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

new academic year

A week has passed since my classes officially begun last week. As a Hiyoshi campus student again this year, I'm not seeing too many drastic changes this year other than the fact that I'm taking more advanced law classes.

The problem is these law classes. Although I majoring in law, I'm experiencing a lot of difficulty understanding what the professors are trying to imply in their classes, especially in civil law classes. Since my civil law class was understandable and had easy exams, I didn't study that hard. I'm not sure if that's the reason for this difficulty, but this obviously is not a good sign, considering the amount of stuff I have to learn this year before advancing into Mita campus.

But, I think a lot of problems lies in the way the professors are "teaching" their classes. They have absolutely no flow to their course and I have no clue where they are trying to direct us to. Anyway, I guess I'm going to have to put in a lot more effort to live through this year...sigh.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

an example of british english

After purchasing some aubergines at a local supermarket, I took the tube into the city centre. There, I saw some humourous programmes which I really favour and watch quite often. Afterwards, I rented a car and filled it up with petrol at a local service station and headed home.

Unfortunately, on my way back, my car broke down on the motorway. Bloody hell. What sort of rubbish do they offer these, I had to call the police on my mobile and took the railway to my flat instead. My day didn't end there though. I dropped my aubergines on the lift I was taking.

What a day.

In American English, this will become...

After purchasing some eggplants at a local supermarket, I took the subway downtown. There, I saw some humorous programs which I really favor and watch quite often. Afterwards, I rented a car and filled it up with gas(oline) at a local gas station and headed home.

Unfortunately, on my way back, my car broke down on the highway. What the hell. What sort of garbage do they offer these, I had to call the police on my cell and took the railroad to my apartment instead. My day didn't end there though. I dropped my eggplants on the elevator I was taking.

What a day.

What a difference...if I do go to Cambridge, I just hope people will not look down on me for using American English instead of their de facto standard.