free web tracker soliloquies: 11/21/2004 - 11/28/2004


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

in a "slanted mood"

Aren't there days when you are pissed off for no particular reason? Well, today was one of those days. I was really...irritated throughout the day, starting from the haste I had from second period. I wonder why...oh, there can't be any reasons when I'm irritated for no particular reason. Duh! lol

In a state like this, I feel comfortable being empties out my mind, without the hassle that generates when people are around. It's not like I'm a "alone" person or anything, but when I'm in this condition, I just long to be left alone. Aren't there times when you want to be alone, away from everyone, or is it just me? This question could more likely be my speciality, compared to the question I wrote on the first sentence.

Today, I was surprised to hear something from my sis, which was something I don't recall telling her or gave permission to proliferate to the only person whom I told to. What a blabbermouth! For your information, it's my mother. Now, my sis is suspecting me stronger than ever and it's really annoying, since I usually tend to keep my things to myself. The only reason I told my mother is because it was kind of unavoidable. I should've just lied...
I'm regretting it.

Oh, this is not as serious as it may sound. lol

Friday, November 26, 2004


As I've written in my post yesterday, I studied again, outside my house. I wasn't able to accomplish as efficient as I did yesterday, but I was able to clear my norma set for today: Japanese History and Mathmatics are gone for good, along with English Reading. Yay!

Anyway, isn't it warm tonight? I wore my coat today since it was really chilly last night, even with my blazer on and it seemed like I was going to be late home again today. Instead, strong, south wind is blowing continuouslly, which is giving up a warm evening today.

Lastly, when I went on the scale today, the computer gave me a number, which meant that I've lost 2kg and lost 2% of body fat ratio
in a day. Is this possible, even if we consider the fact that I've not taken decent lunch and dinner today? We deninately don't eat 2kg of food everyday or do we? I conjecture that our scale is going nuts. We'd better get a new one. lol

Thursday, November 25, 2004

je peux étudier

Je pouvais étudier! Il fait beau, quand nous pouvons avoir plaisir à étudier. Je vais étudier encore demain.

Okay, I got that off a translator. Um...just the second sentence's later half though. It says

"I was able to study! It is nice,when we are able to enjoy studying. I'm going to study again tomorrow."

in French. In fact, I enjoyed it so much that by the time I noticed, the clock on my cell showed 21:30 as the current time. Wow, 5 hours and 30 minutes of continuous work. Impressive, isn't it? lol Politics and Economics, English Reading were almost taken care of today and I advanced a bit with one of the Mathmatics. According to the plan, I'm supposed to get rid of Japanese History and the Mathmatics I worked on today tomorrow.

K.C. and Sunshine Band - That's the Way (I Like It)
Oh, that's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh,
I like it, uh-huh, uh-huh. lol

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

not much

Hi. How are you people? I'm studying REALLLLY hard for the finals...NOT! I did solve some Math problems today, but not in a pace that is necessary to complete everything on time. Oh...some one please give me a hand here! I'm having trouble studying. Je ne peux pas étudier!

By the way, it's a month 'till Christmas Eve. It doesn't feel like that though. By far, this winter is really warm with highs going up to 20C. The weather's weird again this year too. In fact, it's weird every year, so weird weathers are not so weird anymore...if you know what I mean. Oh, I wonder why Christmas Eves are more considerale, when it's
technically just a day before Christmas, which is of course, the main holiday? Well, I do like Christmas Eves better's another stupid thought of mine. lol Well, gotta go! Au revior.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

draft resolutions

As I've written yesterday, although I had a nice day off from school today, thanks to Labor Thanksgiving Day, which coincidentially is in November close to American Thanksgiving, I haven't done any studying, that'll directly affect my "performance" in the upcoming finals. Ha-ha. This lack of motivation is really getting scary. What are the ways I can increase it...hmm.

Instead, I was interpreting a lot of draft resolutions sent over the MSN today. IT is wonderful, isn't it? We can do school group projects at home! I've read the draft resolutions of 2 countries and a basic ideas of additional 2. For some reason, the country I'm representing, Japan is having a lot of requests for sponsorship. Or are all countries receiving just as many requests? I'm not sure, but we've sponsored/given request from Argentina, New Zealand, Australia, France, Germany, Sweden, United Kingdom and United States. We've accepted all of them, since we couldn't think up of any reasons to reject their requests.

In my opinion, this year's MUN is too peaceful...most of the countries listed up are "developed" nations and only notable nations in the MUN regarding security issues are Israel and some Arabic nations. We don't have a delegation for China, Iraq, Afghanistan, North Korea, East Timor, Sudan know, from regions with disputes. I'm beginning to wonder how are we ever going to be able to choose the draft resolutions and what are we going to talk about in the
actual session of MUN.

Another thought. It's impossible to do a group activity, dividing work equally. A situation where someone has to sacrifice his/her time to do more work than other, all work at worst in unavoidable. I'm used to this way of thinking, since I've always been that "someone", who is given a lot of responsibility and work to finish and to lead the group for success. This fact used to be tough top accept though. When people are placed in a situation like this, he/she would definately think like...

"Why do I have to do all the work, when other members of the group are going to receive the same grades?"

This used to be my way of thinking but now, it has changed. Thinking grade-wise, of course it's unfair , since the uninterested part of the group may possibly get a same evaluation, when there's a big gap in effort he/she puts in. Not all things can be measured with grades though. By taking leadership in these group activities, I believe we are able to gain a lot of things, which defininately would be useful socially, but are indescribable with words. Now, I'm accepting this fact I gained from experience: I'm not thinking like the way I wrote few lines prior now.

Different topic. I had a weird sighting today, when I went to a supermarket nearby. Grandpa, had a leash on his granddaughter's bicycle, as if it was a dog or something. Funny, isn't it?

Last, but not least. I passed level 1 eiken! :)

Monday, November 22, 2004

the terminal

I would love to go see a movie or movies NOW, even though I am watching a lot of DVDs at home. I just don't feel like entering "final exams week" without having any fun before it...unfortunately, this will could be difficult to realize.

First of all, I can't seem to find any movie I'm interested in that is currently in the theaters. I was somewhat interested in "The Collateral", but it's kind of outdated now, since the premiere dates back all the way to October 30. Notable movies beside "The Collateral" include, "The Incredibles", "Howl's Moving Castle", "Around the World in 80 Days" and "The Polar Express". Unfortunately, I'm not really into animations/fantasies, which gets rid of all those selections currently available. Secondly, the clock is ticking moment after moment and the test is approaching every second. Well, I don't really have much intention of studying, even though this is our "final" finals and it's one of the main factors the school uses for recommendation. I wonder where all this confidence is coming from. I hope I don't screw everything up, since I did pretty well last trimester.

I tend to favor movies that premiere during the holidays. Wait, am I being sucked into the tactics movie distributors are using against consumers? lol Anyway, I saw a lot of movies in theaters last winter too. The movie I'm really interested that has a specific premiere date set already is "The Terminal". It is directed by Steven Spielberg and it starrs Tom Hanks and Catherine Zeta-Jones. Tom Hanks is Viktor Navoski, a citizen of an imaginary Eastern-European country named Krakoziya, who came to New York to carry on his "promise". Unfortunately, there was a military coup in his home country on his way to New York, which invalidates his visa and passport, locking him in the airport terminal, which gives him no other choice but to live in the terminal. This movie premiered in June in the States and DVDs are supposed to be available on the 23rd. What a rip off! Well, there are somethings only theaters can the way, its premiere date is December 18. I can't wait! lol

Sunday, November 21, 2004


Last night, I ate out with my family excluding my mom, which was something I haven't done for a while. My mom had to participate in this gathering of my sister's school. From my request, we went to this local somewhat famous Italian restaurant. Delicious, especially grilled veal I ordered! So soft and

Today. I've been watching DVDs and getting rid of all my assignments that are due this week. So far, I've finished one of the current event reports, meaning I've got an ethics report and another current events report remaining. I should be able to wipe them off my To-Do list, not too far in the future. Oh, what should I do with our draft resolution...? I guess I'm off to a MSN confrence this evening...