free web tracker soliloquies: 10/23/2005 - 10/30/2005


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Thursday, October 27, 2005


My instinct and my will are having a major quarrel inside my mind...while my instinct is telling me to go, my will is telling me to give up. After all, I've commited almost all of the actions I've thought up of to impress her and nothing's happening. No sign, no clue, no nothing...

God, this sucks. So mortifying...I can't believe I'm actually crying night after night from this sense of regret that is flowing inside me. I want the powers Mel Gibson got in the movie "What Women Want".

Maybe this is the reality...

Sunday, October 23, 2005


I had a lot of fun today with my friends with typical Japanese college students' entertainment; drinking and karaoke-ing out in Shibuya. The original plan was for us to go bowling after drinking, but the waiting time of 30 minutes limited our choices.

Anyway, on my way home, I talked to two of my friends; the one whom already knew and the other who was unfamiliar with the subject about what I'm always talking about on this crappy blog. The other one seemed really surprised about the fact.

No wait, this news flash I've just got from my friend is really ironic...oh my God. Life really sucks, man. Calm down...just wait for the reply, then think afterwards. Yes, that's the way.