free web tracker soliloquies: 08/29/2004 - 09/05/2004


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

ain't it pretty?

Today, I finally wrote this document from school, that make the students blabber "A4" long about the reasons why he or she had chosen that faculty of the university. When I made the rough draft on my PC using the mincho font, it looked like it was written by someone a bit smarter than me, but the final draft I wrote with hand, looked way rougher than the rough draft, as if it was written by a pre-schooler or something. What are the ways to obtain a neater handwriting? Please give me some advise.

Now that that's taken care of, the only summer assignment left for me to do is the f**ken home economics, that makes you write on a report sheet with hand, for endless 5 pages, in the 21st century. How lame, how analog, how rotten can that be? But assingments are assigned, so I found some condo ads bundled with the paper, wrapped up my ideas today, and I'm ready to rock!...maybe not, but I think I'll be able to hike around Kamakura on the 7th.

It is raining cats and dogs outside, and the Meteorlogical Agency issued a warning in the Eastern Kanagawa region. I don't know the reason why, but I decided to snap the rainfall on the camera. I've extended the shutter speed, risen the ISO sensitivity, and suceeded in taking a pretty looking pic, shown above. Ain't it pretty? lol


I've been asking myself this question for quite a while now. The question is...

"What kind of psychological element makes people over appologize, saying "sorry" when that appology is unnecessary?"

Is it that person's characteristic behaivior? Or as the question asks, there is an existance of a psychological element, or a feeling which leads that person into making that particular action, which in this case is appology.

I wonder which is the case here...hmmm....

Friday, September 03, 2004

chased and caught

Majority of my classmates and I gathered together a bit prior to Back-To-School today to shoot our original "manhunt" kinda game we are planning on using for the Culture Festival. Reunions are nice, no matter how long the interval is. I've noticed some people changed, while some remained just the same. Some people lightened their hair color, while some had dimmed theirs. Yes, in an event like this, it is my habit to snap pics for use in this blog, but today's pics may violate some rights, so I'll eschew, but I would REALLY REALLY like to post this pic of a dialect researcher, who just doesn't look right with sunglasses on. Opinions are always welcome. lol

My role was the "bad guy", whose crime is yet to be chosen. Along with other two "bad guys", I was chased by the whole class, wearing a black parka, black jeans, sunglasses, black shoes, holding a video camera. How suspicious can that be? I was actually suspected by one of the embarassing! Well, I was caught because of an incident that happened while the game was going on...bummer. lol

The appointment I booked with Mr. Aoyagi went surprisingly smooth and well, and I think I was able to obtain some useful and logical advices from him, since he seemed to be in a good mood today. Lucky me. As a result, I've made the others wait for 56 min., and the black clip I bought from the urgency didn't mean much, since he didn't accept my work today. But my thesis is at it's final stage. Thank God.

And, on our way home...their seems to be a Kamakura hiking plan in the works, planned on the 7th. I Ruis are supposed to be wrapping up their theses, while II Ruis are supposed to be studying their physics, prepareing for the upcoming test. But, I'm really buying the plan! Am I wrong in anyway? lol

Thursday, September 02, 2004

excess expence

Will I ever be able to renew my cell phone handset? Today, I was surprised to find out that my postal savings has vanished from all the fun and shopping I did over the summer. The balance was...9 yen! lol Well, I'll go on just the way I saving, just spending. Just a matter of time. Other than that, nothing special happened today. I just sipped some iced tea on the deck outside, enjoying sunshine.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004


Ahh...September. It's "The Back-To-School season", wherever you live. September 1st, here in Japan, you see elementary school students, all the way up to high school students, walk quickly to their nearest stations, to begin "commuting" again to schools they belong. There was a long line at the commuter's pass issueing machine, and everyone was having conversations that went something like..."wats up? how was your summer?".

Enough observation. I, still have another week off from school, that is going to be consumed from the remaining assignments. And yes, today I was able to spend a somewhat fulfilling day at school. Seclution away from the society is mentally unhealthy, at least for me. Facing real live people seems very natural, and I think I was able to have nice conversation with the both old and new people. As usual, the newspaper club members were there and Tsujido video people were editing. I did book an appointment with my teacher today, but I realized I didn't have anything to say or explain to him...what should I do??? Dorky

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

pieces of me?

You may have exclaimed from the sudden appearance of Ashlee Simpson. No, I'm not a frantic fan of her...she's more like "i don't like her so much". Besides I don't know her very well, other than that she's the little sister of Jessica Simpson, she sings in this studio kinda place in the video of her hit song "Pieces of Me", and her debut album, "Autobiography" is now ranking 1st on the Billboard Top 200.

If you had been reading my blog for while, which I assume no one does, I've been writing this stupid graduation thesis for the past 2 weeks. Well, it's finally finished. 21,765 letters. Why am I writing 9,765 letters surpassing the necessity? Anyway, I'm glad that that's out of my mind, although I've still got some homeworks left to do over the summer...CRAP!

While I was working on the thesis, I was listening to an online radio station called There, since her song is a hit now, they repeatedly streamed her song "Pieces of Me". And the chorus of "Pieces of Me" goes like...

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels

which is similar to what I'm feeling now, now that the thesis is finished. But, just that part. Let me post the whole lyrics below.

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't slee
Then the phone rings, I hear you
In the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me(x2)

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy, it's your mission
And you won't stop till I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom, crash,
you're all I have


How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
I love how you can tell
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...(x2)

I'm not interacting with the lyrics or anything, because I don't feel the way she does in this song. But...the content of this lyrics made me remind what someone said yesterday on MSN...nothing more!

Monday, August 30, 2004


MTV Video Music Awards 2004 has ended, and the results are coming in! From what I see on, the results are the following.

Best Video Of The Year
OutKast - Hey Ya

Best Male Video
Usher feat. Lil Jon & Ludacris - Yeah!

Best Female Video
Beyonce - Naughty Girl

Best Group Video
No Doubt - It's My Life

Best Rap Video
Jay-Z - 99 Problems

Best R&B Video
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You

Best Hip-Hop Video
OutKast - Hey Ya

Best Dance Video
Usher feat. Lil Jon & Ludacris - Yeah!

Best Rock Video
Jet - Are You Gonna Be My Girl?

Best Pop Video
No Doubt - It's My Life

Best New Artist
Maroon 5 - This Love

Viewer's Choice
Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

There still are numerous amount of awards given out at the show, but I think these are the main Like last year, black singers did great. No discrimination whatsoever, they really did. I love OutKast, and Alicia Keys, and Beyonce! lol And Maroon 5, my favorite was able to get an award also. As for me, I did nothing today. Just another 5,000 letter advancement in my thesis...lame-o!