free web tracker soliloquies: 11/28/2004 - 12/05/2004


so・lil・o・quy/- n. [C,U] a speech in a play in which a character talks to himself or herself, so that the audience know the character's thoughts.

Saturday, December 04, 2004


Day 3. Well enough. A day to go, although I'm not really going to study much for it today nor tomorrow.

Today was my father's birthday. We had a nice dinner at home, with a lot of conversations and stuff, and of course, cake! lol Families are meant to be like this, I thought. It is really rare for my father to be home and it is extremely rare for him to be home on his actual birthday. Luckily this year, we were able to celebrate him on the day of his birthday.

The expected high for Kanagawa is 26C tomorrow. Heeeeelloooooo? It's December for God sake! Forecast's expecting heavy rain tomorrow, though.

Friday, December 03, 2004


Day 2. I did preferably well on English Oral and Math tests, but Japanese test, which is a subject I didn't study a sufficient amount, I did terrible. I was unable to answer any of the problems with 100% confidence...I could get a "C" this term. Luckily, tomorrow's subjects aren't much of a hassle.

Anyway, Japanese and Math are the subjects I do worst out of all the subjects in my school. Even though I think I will reach the average for Math this term, it had always been a pain in the neck for the past two years, never reaching the average expect this one time. All I've ever gotten in Math were C and D. Japanese, I did well on report cards, but test scores were terrible, proving that I lack ability to understand things my teacher wanted to say. Not just modern Japanese, but I'm terrible at "Kanbun" and "Kobun" too.

The reason why I'm writing this today is because of the proficiency tests that are coming up next January. Subjects we are going to be tested on are English, Japanese and Math. This is really outrageous, because I do not "perform" well with those subjects. Why don't they let us choose the subjects be tested on or why don't they specify the subjects according to the faculty of his/her choice? I'll do way better if one of these systems are implemented...

Thursday, December 02, 2004


Day 1. It all went just fine, I think. Polictics and Economics and Japanese History tests were just too easy, considering the amount of studying I did for preparation. English Reading test, I can't really judge whether I did well or not, because all of the problems were written, essay-like, questions.

The problem is tomorrow. I haven't finished not one of the subjects that are due to be tested tomorrow and what's worse, I don't have any intention of doing so. My feelings are already targeting Christmas, as you can see from the photos I've been and am using for this blog. So...even though the finals this term are supposed to be the most important thing for me now, the ratio of importance is far bellow Christmas. Christmas songs are continually playing on my computer...I wish it snows this winter, although the weather's been really warm. Unlikely. Bummer. lol

Wednesday, December 01, 2004


It's December. A new terminal opened in Tokyo International Airport.

It was my last "ordinary" class in high school, excluding French. From what I see and hear, a lot of people whom came directly up from our middle school seem to have more passion towards our classes and last of those classes, which was today seemed to be memorable. A lot of pictures were taken with some of the teachers today and most of the teachers left messages for us, which were either tips for the future, or the meaning he/she placed inside his/her classes.

However, I really don't have any passion towards our school unfortunately. I don't really care whether today was a last or final or never ever of our classes. Sorry. 2 more hours until tomorrow. A lot should be done, but I don't have any desire to do so. It'll all turn out fine...I hope. lol

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

day after tomorrow

I wonder how much more I am going to able to accomplish, now that I've wasted most of the time, including today, not studying. I'm really worried about all the subjects that I'm believing that I'd be able to study in a day before that subject's test, since I'm not studying any of those subject I've just mentioned. Also, I'm worried about the MUN test, since it's range is really broad. From vocabs to diplomatic techniques to caucusing to UN history. Ahhh. lol

Good news is that I was able to advance my understanding for the integral problems I was stumped at today. Bad news is that even though I advance my understanding for it, I'll probably be unable to get the problems right on the test itself, as seen from the experience I had last term. Well, better start my studying. See ya.

Monday, November 29, 2004


It was an unfortunate day for me today, despite the "luck forecast" or the horoscope thing I spotted when I was just about to leave on Fuji-TV this morning, which said that Aquarius people were going to be the luckiest today.

Because of the railroad crossing, the bus I usually take to Zushi station took 20 minutes, instead of usual 10. When I arrived at the station, the train was accelarating from the platform, which stranded me for 6 minutes until the next train. Altogether, it took me an hour and a half
to get to school, which was about 20 minutes longer than usual.

Actually, the whole bad luck thing began when I was just about to leave this morning. I was unable to find my keychain that has all of my keys bundled together; 2 of my house keys, a locker key, a desk key and a bike key.

Fortunately, I was given a call from Mr. Kosegawa about an hour and a half ago and he told me that it was found in the AVC room today. I wonder why I left it there...well, I guess this evens out the luck-o-meter for the day. Thank God! lol

Conguratulations, Julia Roberts!

Sunday, November 28, 2004

differential and integral

Nothing to say, nothing to write. I didn't accomplish much today. I'm stumped with some of the integral problems in Math III. That was expectable.

No blame to the teacher, but we haven't been told the ways to solve the problems written in the textbook
directly. From that, I am going through an endless hour of figuring, based on the sample problems. Even with that attempt, I'm still stumped. Damn math. What an useless subject, at least for me. After all, I'm 99% sure that I'll never encounter math above elementary school level, after the exit test. lol

On the other hand, I'm almost done with Chemistry, understanding by making notes from the text and stuff. My goal is to get rid of Oral English within today. Good luck me.

I had another one of those weird dreams I've been seeing
frequently lately again, last night. It was sooooooooooo REAL: it took place in our classroom with all the familiar faces from my school, although members of my class differed from real life. The images of it are remaining vividly in my mind. The whole sequence took place underneath the TV on the righthand side of the room and the actions in it consisted mostly of conversations. If the main event of this dream happened in real life, it would really disappoint me and shatter me to pieces.

I'm not going to write about the actual events that took place in my dream. It's way too sad and incomprehensible...